OK i am so into writing songs now .. i don't know why but yeah !! so this is one song i am writing . its about love and guys cheating on a girl ! i watch a movie and suddenly the lyrics came into my mind . so hope you people reading it will like it ...it may suck so don't laugh yeah !! here goes




this is my life
full of ups and down
a million tough ts came by
but i don't know how
to solve,
until you came by ....


you made me smile
you made me laugh
you made me wanna hold you tight
you cheer me on
you push me on
and a kiss that touch my heart


i gave you all my heart
but you didn't gave it back
you tricked it ,
you fooled it ,
you made it cry all day,
i gave you all my heart
but nothing came back ...
i believe that i was blind
from the start
from the time you hold my hand ..


i was so blind
by the love you gave
i look through the window
to see couples holding hands
and i ...
felt ...
lonely somehow
but i know .. that i was
blinded by your love ...


i gave you all my heart ...
but you didn't gave back,
you tricked it ,
you fooled it ,
you made it cry all day ,
i gave you all my heart ,
hoping you will say
i want you
i love you
and you'll be mine
for the rest of the days ..


i ...
gave you all my heart ,
but you didn't gave back ,
you tricked it ,
you fooled it,
you made it cry all day ,
i gave you all my heart
but nothing came back
i believe...
that i was blind
from the start ...
from the start you hold my hand ....



so pips what do you guys think ...
weird huh ..
hahah i really dont know why i post it .. it is not that good cause it was my second time writing it and the frist was for my friends which is posted at the previous post ! so hope you guys kinda like it



anyway ..life is improving .. of course .. i totally had a fun time in school and i learnt a piano song which i tried playing it but i suck at it ! i couldn't cordenate it and i was making a fool out of myself .. my friends shouted to me at the hall saying i should dance instead of playing cause it was giving them a headache ..:( but who cares i wanna play .. and of cause i was like the troublemaker forcing my friend to teach me ! thanks anyway hanisah :) oh and my friend matthew played a song which was really beautiful ! i tell you it just simply makes you fall in love with it and you will fell the relaxing music flow through your blood stream and the only think you can think of at that time was just only the song hoping that it will never end !! woosh i love it !
i cant wait to go to school again to ask them to play it ! well thats what happened today nothing much really . wooo yeah i almost forgot the games we played in the hall where everyone were running like monkeys that did had not eaten for like a week !!! i had a great laugh with my friends and yeah it was a great experience so yeah i wanna spent more times withmy class mates girls of course !! we can totally be insane and not get crtisise by the boys ..( no offence )
so we shall plan for a girlsnight out cause its a must during the march holidays !! it will be soo cool and fun with midnight shooping , student price movies tickets and all the talking and photo taking .. weeeeeeeee i cant wait ! girls night out is a must ! well i will ask all of them out on the march and i had taken them sooo no one else should !! hehehehe PEACE !:)

thats all for today .. and i cant wait to watch princess hours yupee !!! ok i know i am slow sooo...yeah ! i will post soon :)

IGNORE THE SPAMMING !! DONT CARE ! CAUSE I KNOW ITS NEVER ME AND I BELIEVE MY FRIENDS KNOW ME INSIDE OUT TO REALISE THAT IT IS JUST A SPAMMER....



I AIN'T LOOKING BACK !! AND ONLY LOOKING TOWARDS THE FUTURE TAKING ONE STEP AT A TIME !!


yesterday , my life was at the very end .. is like i am about to fall into a water full of sharks that is going to have me as lunch anytime ! well i told myself i ain't going to dwell on it and to take one step at a time ! i wont look back and take the next day as a brand new day .i don't wanna cause myself anymore trouble and i will sure do what is right ! i ain't going to fall cause i will pull myself back up again . no matter how hard things become ,i will never put my head down and say that i give up ! i will handle it professionally and believe that i can handle any tough route ahead of me cause i know my friends got my back !

thanks to my best friends that i made it through !!!

so i decided to write something down just for you !!
TASHI , NSY AND HANISAH :) + friends that help me pull through !


you help me when i am down
you help me when i cry
you save my world thousands of time
and i'm glad to have you there .
so many days you see
the world wern't there for me
troubles came and go
you stood up for me
i could never understand why does this have to happen to me
but i know for sure
that you'll be there for me

you help me when i fall
you help me when i cry
you cheer me on and on
to see that smile come by
you crack a joke for me
to hear my laugh again
i'm so lucky to have you friends with me
your one of a kind


troubles came and go
my soul just went to flow
never coming back
afraid to face the fact
but you were there for me
to keep me here intact
for the times we spent together
were never ending favours



i want to shout out loud
for you to hear my call
to thank you for those times
you were here and all
to keep me on the ground
never falling down
to hold me tight
and say
i got your back girl
we are here to protect



so i guess thats it
for me to say
i do have wounderful friends
that i will always say
you keep me standing
never falling
and i do love you
so thanks
for what you gave
cause i got your back ! :)


from yours truly : ashley :)



ok done with all the talking emo thing
i had fun in school today looking at two crazy girls going insane infront of me who are TANIA and RINA ! they were turning retard and i dont know why but the made me laugh and yeah ... it was seriously funny cause they werent speaking english but like chickmonk language !!!!
waited for mr loke to end his meeting so that we could get our annual awards day rehersal done and we sitted there in the hall for an hour or so . in the end , i fall asleep with my friends in the hall lying on our bags . luckily i did not snoor or sleep talk ! soon mr loke came and the coir gathered round and started singing ... it was horibble !!! we blank out together and suddenly it was soo quiet in the hall . the dance as there so was the band and it was so embrassing that i felt that i can just faint or to hide my face somewhere . i couldnt look up and me and my friends saw mr loke shaking his head and was utterly disappointed with us ! especially our choir teacher her face was as black as a charcol . i tell you all this was freaking me out. anyway i got to go so i will update another time :)

CHEAT !! is that like the only thing you do .

ok i totally spot my friend cheating during exam class ! it was like ... hello its a exam not a little class test ! so what if it is only a common test ??? its still something major ..kinda ... i mean yeah you took out your phone once and i didnt care and kinda ignore it but everytime i look up, i see you taking out your phone again and again and hell yeah !! hello you even communicated with someone ... you cheated last year and this year you did it again .... excuse me for your own info !!! i put in 4 hours of hard work to try to get good results !!and i believe that the class did the same ! so yeah cause i ain't going to dweel on it anymore but it's kinda pissing when some one told the teacher that the WHOLE CLASS CHEATED !!!! hello we ain't cheaters like .....
so yeah the class was indeed pist thee......
anyway i shant care .. cause you are soo low thats what a teacher said !!! and HELL YEAH !!



EXAMS ARE OVER SOON !!
two more papers and the exams are over and i love it cause the stress are over !!
Had a fun time with my school CUTE friends ... hahaha you know who you are !! one compliment and like yeah your face is as red as a tomato !! ahahhah it was soo funny that we seemed to be tha people making lots of loud noises .. and don try to erase the smile from your face cause you acting is horibble !! just admitte it .. haha you dont have to be shy about it ...
awwww ... it was seriously red and like its the first we saw his face as red as ever !!no names mention .. before i get killed ! and yeah on friday me and all my friends are going to catch a movie either jumper or L .. probably jumper than L .!!

FOR SOMEONE SPECIAL :)
FREINDS !!!
TO EVERYONE I KNOW !

you sign your cards ad letters bff
you got a million ways to make me laugh
your looking out for me you've got my back
so good to have you around
you know the secerets i could never tell
and when i'm quiet you break through my shell
dont need to do a rebel yell
cuz you keep my feet on my ground


(CHOURS)
YOUR TRUE FRIEND
YOUR HERE TILL THE END
YOU PULL ME ASIDE WHEN SOMTHING AINT RIGHT
TALK WITH ME NOW AND INTO THE NIGHT
TILL IT'S ALRIGHT AGAIN
YOUR TRUE FRIEND

you dont angry when i change the plans
somehow your never out of second chances
wont see when i told you when i'm wrong again
i'm so lucky...
that i found ..

(CHOURS )

true friends will go to the end of the earth
till they find the things you need
friends hang on through the ups and the downs
cuz they got someone to believe in


YOUR TRUE FRIEND
YOUR HERE TILL THE END
YOU PULL ME ASIDE WHEN SOMETHING AINT RIGHT
TALK TO ME NOW AND INTO THE NIGHT
NO NEED TO PRETEND
OH YEAH

(CHOURS)

AHHHH SHIT IT IS LATE AND I ACCIDENTLY DELETE MY POST !!! ERRRR
NEVER MIND I WILL UPDATE WHEN I AM FREE !!!! :)

WHY ME ???


well chinese new year went perfectly well !! i could not be bothered to think so much about whats happening around me which i might screw my life and stuff ... it only seems that one person can understand how i feel and answer my problems .. you know who !! (hint )??
hmmmm my girlfriend who is expercing the same thing !! ..shhh for me to know for you to find out! ...hahhaha :) well i couldnt believe what really happened ! it sound soo drama which it ended after a few days ! it is good that it ended as all the parties totally agreeed that it was best for everyone ! and of course if you people are thinking of staeding than IT NEVER HAPPENED!!its a really long story that i only share it to people i am really close to like the one person mentioned up there !! i think ! hope so hahah :) yeah i am soo happy now that all of it is over so me and my girlfriend wont have to suffer it no more !! we both could have died if we both have not helped and supported each other! thats what friends are for ! really!! finally the bad weather had come to an end !! it was a tuff time for me and her ! our phone bills might had exploded and get a scolding from our parents ! and sorry girlfriend if it was not for me .. yeah ..
i hate myself a little ! i dont understand LOVE??or FRIENDSHIP !!!serious it just dont seem right at all why me ??i experience it since sce 1 broken and sucky people who ones are really nice and stuff but turn the other way round after ... ya . its seems so ....errrrrr ...
i shall rule my life !! and not let anyone ruin its mine not yours and i hate people who are flirts and kill a girls heart just like that !! well let me say .. you guys arent worth the love of the girls at all ... SAYING I LOVE YOU DOESNT SAYS ANYTHING !! action speaks louder than words ! you cant just say things or blubber them out of your mouth ..you had frighten and scared her away !doesnt that makes sense to you ? in order to love someone .. i believe that both parties have agreement to make the best out of it ?! yeah that is love ..when two person just wanna be together and standby for each other and never a win win situation . and friends are like there for you and not doing stupid stuff .. people choose friends wisely and not do something so you can get what you want ! i shall stop here for today .. i am tired now ... its like 3 48 am ..hahha so i shall update tmr orthe next day !! see ya

DONT KILL ME FOR WRITING ..
PEACE !

TLZ, STOP PEEKING AT THE COMPUTER! :D
i know you want to see what i write, but relax, soon!

yo girlfriend, obviously this is shiya.
okay okay lizhong, i've read your EMO post.
don't be so so so so so emo okay. :D
you need a emo blogskin and song now right?
look on the bright and sunny side.
lol, what am i talking about? bright and sunny?

please remember to update! don't rust your blog lah :D
or your blog will ended up our classroom. lol.
again, i'm being so lame? what's wrong with me?

i know i'm talking rubbish and you're laughing so
loud now lah! alright. X: chills.

THE EMO SIDE OF ME !!



WHAT THE HELL
is like you guys just throw everything to me to get stuff done !!
it is because that you guys are friends with me for like 2 years that i just take it as nothing happen and you guys are busy !!! WTF ! dont treat me as if i am your maid ! well i am not ! dont take things for granted ! if you guys were to do it again i think i might just blow and start saying things i never want to say ! i hate doing stuff for people ! i always give in and never once complain !! If it is good and you score good marks , it is thanks to me ! i did it so sa not to fail my work !!! SHIT YOU !! totally no sense of responsibility !!!!!!!!!!!! i just wanna kill and go mad !!




STOP WHAT YOU THINK IS NICE TO DO

I never regret making decisions but stop calling me something i hate !! once ok twice enough and stop saying it all the time ! dont you get sick of what you say ?? my answers are always the same !! you have totally nothing to do with me ! friends understand !! only friends ok!!!getting pist and i am like not saying anything !! so dont push me ! stop mocking !! icant take it no more !!! i just ...

soo just stop it !!! dont make my life terrible anymore !! i hate it ! so thanks if you can just stop it !! well i will really appreciate it !
trust me you dont wanna be in my shoes !